The Oath

since sunday the 18th i’d taken oath, a purely religious oath.

~ one month of celibacy, including ocassional full fasts ~

For many it seems like i am one of the ‘stuck-to-rituals’ kind of person, though my being in D/s lifestyle says the contrary. My lifestyle is not only about my desires but also about my spirituality and the roots go way deeper than the overall view. i am not so of the religious kind, though i relate my self to the parts in religion which seems truthful and near to reality and ideals. like God Shiva and his legend…

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Shiva is known as the destroyer in the Trimurti. He is the husband of Parvati and their children are Kartikeya and Ganesha.Shiva’s appearance is quite awesome. He wears a snake Vasuki around his neck. He is also known as Neelkanth (blue-throated), for he holds Vasuki’s poison in his throat. The legend dates back to the time when the gods churned the oceans. Vasuki’s poison threatened the world. Only Shiva could take the poison in his mouth. He held it in his throat forever and earned his name Neelkanth.Also known as Pashupati, Lord of the animals he sits on a tiger skin subduing aggression. He holds a damru (a small drum) a symbol of creative activity. One hand is raised in the abhaya-mudra, for he is the benevolent force of destruction.He wears a pair of unmatched earrings that symbolize his being Ardhnarishwara (half man and half woman). One earring is a Kundala, worn by men and the other a Tatanka worn by women. Shiva unites the sexes in his being. The love of Shiva and Parvati (his wife) fused together, they become one, the single creators.Historically, Shiva reveals himself in secular as well as religious texts. A Dravidian king he married Sati a daughter of an Aryan king. (Sculptures from The Indus Valley Civilization depict Shiva).Sati’s father, Daksha opposed their union. After the wedding, at a yagna (sacrifice), being performed by Daksha. Shiva was ignored by his father in law who found him ‘uncivilized’.Sati couldn’t bear this humiliation of her husband, jumped into the sacrificial fire. When Shiva came to collect her ashes he could only express his deep pain and grief through a violent dance called the Tandav. He terrified all creation as he danced around the earth seven times.When nothing would pacify Shiva the gods feared his sorrow could destroy the earth. They decided to revive Sati and she was born as Parvati (daughter of the mountains).Meanwhile, Shiva had renounced the world and gone to Mount Kailash where he had began a hard penance. When Parvati reached Mount Kailash, Shiva was so involved in his meditation that he was immune to Parvati’s presence.Parvati did all she could to entice Shiva but his meditation was powerful. Finally she asked Madan/Kama (the god of love) for help. Kama told her to dance in front of Shiva. When Parvati danced, Madan shot an arrow laced with flowers at Shiva, whose penance broke.When Shiva opened his eyes his first sight was Parvati dancing before him. Shiva fell in love with Parvati and became her loving husband. Parvati became his shakti (creative force).In Mount Kailash their ardour was intense, The Gods worried about the child who would be born from this union. Shiva’s seed dropped on the banks of the Ganga (the river which flows through his matted hair). This lingam is worshipped all over India.Their first child was Kartikeya or Subramanya. Kartikeya would fight the demon Taraka rescue the world and then return to Parvati and Shiva.The birth of Parvati’s second child was far more prosaic, Parvati wanted to bathe in privacy and she created a son from the sweat of her body. She asked him to guard the door.When Shiva returned and walked towards the bathing area, Ganesha blocked his path. Shiva was angry and offended by the impudent new guard who had the nerve to question him. In the battle of wills Shiva beheaded Ganesha.Parvati was furious and demanded Ganesha be brought back to life. Shiva sent Nandi (his bull) to bring back the first head of an animal who was sleeping with his head to the north.Nandi brought back the head of Airavat, Lord Indra’s elephant. After this single cosmic misunderstanding the family Shiva, Parvati, Kartik and Ganesha lived together happily.Somvar (Mondays) are dedicated to Shiva, on every Monday of the year people observe a fast for Shiva.

PARVATI

Parvati, is the wife of Shiva and the mother of Kartikeya and Ganesha. Shiva and Parvati’s marriage can be traced in historical and religious texts.Shiva was a Dravidian king who married Sati, a daughter of an Aryan ruler. Sati’s father, Daksha disapproved of their union. After the wedding, at a yagna (sacrifice), being performed by Daksha. Shiva was ignored by his father in law and the guests.Sati, who could not bear this humiliation of her husband, jumped into the sacrificial fire and became the first Sati (a tradition where women would burn themselves on their husband’s funeral pyres).When Shiva collected her ashes, he could only express his deep pain and grief through a violent dance called the Tandav. Terrifying all creation he danced around the earth seven times. Unable to console Shiva, the Gods resolved they would revive Sati.Sati was reborn as Parvati, daughter of King Himavat who lived in the Himalayas.Shiva had renounced the world and in Mount Kailash he began a hard penance. Immersed in meditation, Shiva was immune to the presence of Parvati (daughter of the mountains).Parvati asked Madan/Kama the God of love for help. He told her to dance in front of Shiva. While Parvati danced, Madan shot an arrow laced by flowers at Shiva, whose penance broke. When Shiva opened his eyes Parvati was his first vision. Shiva too began to dance with Parvati and as the gods watched the couple in bliss, their fears were laid to rest.Parvati lured Shiva into marriage and away from asceticism. He became a householder and she became his shakti, the creative force of the cosmos.In Mount Kailash their ardour was intense, the gods were worried about the child who would be born from this union. Shiva’s seed dropped on the banks of the Ganga (the river who flows through his matted hair). This is the lingam that is worshipped all over India. Their first child was Kartikeya or Subramanya. Kartikeya would fight the demon Taraka rescue the world and then return to Parvati and Shiva.
Parvati’s second child was Ganesha. Legends say his birth was determined by Parvati’s desire for privacy. She wanted to bathe and created a son from the sweat of her body. She asked Ganesha to guard the door. When Shiva returned to their living area, Ganesha confronted him. Shiva who was unaccustomed to being blocked at his doorstep fought Ganesha and beheaded him. When Parvati saw her son lying beheaded, she was furious and demanded Ganesha be brought back to life.
Shiva sent his hordes to bring back the first head of an animal who was sleeping with his head to the North. They brought back the head of Airavat, Lord Indra’s elephant. Ganesha was given primary status as a god and Parvati was appeased.Parvati is the only female deity, who like Vishnu has the ability to change her form. She appears in incarnations as Durga and Lakshmi. As Parvati she is soft, gentle and sattvic. As Durga she becomes a powerful warrior, and as Kali a bloodthirsty Goddess who can even demand sacrificial killings.

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my religion says the We (Hindu Brahmins), in one or other way share the blood of one particular deitiy. And FRom my father’s side i have blood of “Sati” (shiva’s first wife) and from my mother’s side i have blood of “kali” ( re-incarnation of Parvati/sati/durga). And so i may share the qualities of both of the deities. Though its all after all a part of Shiva as he is a “ARdhnarishvara”(half man-woman) and thus i identify my self with it.

Even in my life the phases are going similar.. its like i am going through the phaze where Shiva started a hard penance after Sati’s death. pretty much similar its for me. and thus that is one of the hidden reasons i have taken the oath. its more to mind and heart then to religion.

in someways i am waiting for the re-birth of my sati in form of parvati…

~ AconitE.

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